From Heartbreak to Happiness
“I tried for so long to get it right,
but You get it so wrong until the right love Makes you realize that there's a one-and-only”
– Maren Morris
Nothing is worse than a broken heart or watching someone you care about experience this. I can remember both heartbreaks I experienced in Seattle, first was my boyfriend I followed from Houston and the second was my last heartbreak before I found Michael. Both different experiences but it all kind of felt the same, the anxiety, the Facebook stalking (come on y’all do it too) the feeling of emptiness and wondering how you were going to rebuild. I remember just feeling like I was going through the motions and praying one day I would feel ok. Just know this happens to EVERYONE! You re-build, and I think each time you re-build you come back stronger. My last situation was so complicated, I felt broken, revengeful, lost, every confusing feeling in between. I walked away knowing I was doing the right thing but still doubted myself at times, but I let it go and I’m so happy for that decision. If you have any of these feelings please know you get through and always follow your gut. YOU know what’s best for YOU.
My love story happened when I least expected it, I was applying for a well-known tech company and told my mom if I didn’t get this job I thought I was ready to go back home. The 3rd person to interview me was my husband, he walked in and introduced himself and told me he was the manager of the team. I was so nervous, all I thought was “oh great, you can’t be my manager you’re too attractive”. Fast forward, I got the job! Months went by of me being shy around him and only asking for help from my peers and our other manager. The night of the company holiday party, it all changed. I could tell we were being flirty but still thought maybe I was making it up in my head, but he was being so different! A group of us left the party to go out in Capitol Hill as we were at the bar he ordered me a drink and when he turned to hand it to me I kissed him, talk about butterflies ( ps- he gave multiple hints he was down for that smooch) The next day he texted me saying he had anxiety about us kissing due to his position at work, I was crushed but understood and played it cool and said “ no worries, it’s our secret” but then I got another text later asking my plans for the night haha, and the rest is history! We dated in secret for about two months before I found another job. I’m such a girl’s girl this was the hardest secret to keep, some of my closest gals to date are women I met on that team. I also was so worried about the judgment because you know there are always those people that love to talk and boy did they. It worked in my favor, thank goodness.
You guys might find it odd I didn’t talk about my husband in my bio but I felt he needed his own page. I get teary eyed often thinking about how thankful I am for this person I get to call my husband . Life has thrown us so many challenges (stay tuned next month when I talk about one year of marriage) but we stood strong. This man is the guy I always dreamed of, I mean he’s beautiful. Besides being crazy attractive it’s the love and the qualities he possess and what he brings out of me. He supports me and shows me unconditional love, something I believe everyone deserves. I think I always thought I had to give in to who I was and change, but that’s the not the case, you don’t have to have someone put you through the ringer before they find out they love you. It doesn’t have to be a game, I think it can be black and white. I know everyone’s situation is different all I’m saying is if you feel you’re always giving
or sacrificing who you are as a person, stop, something greater that you can’t even imagine in this moment is waiting for you. Lesson learned from the husband. He’s probably reading this with a big grin on his face, so before his head gets too big, know there is no perfect person. My husband, my person, can also be extremely annoying, very saucy, and so stubborn, and there are still hard subjects we work on. We fight like everyone but we also fight for each other. Thank you my love for accepting me for the person I am and the person I have still yet to become. I hold the title of “wife” so dear to my heart, but not just the word wife, it’s being your wife, Mrs. Malmquist.
If you haven’t found love, know it’s coming! And everyone has their own version of love, and that’s ok! Do you, hang out with your friends, family and know that person or passion is coming for ya, I promise! I know as we get older we start putting pressure on ourselves and I hate that try to remember “ the best things in life are worth waiting for” If you’re in a relationship waiting for the next step, get ready, your heart will hardly be able to handle what comes next! It will be the best. Hang in there, timing is everything. Cheering all y’all on!
